☆｡searching

ughhhhhhhh ｡
i need to stop thinking so negative ｡ ( ゜Д ゜) ''

sooooooo -
i stumbled across a myspace survey (( lol. i know, "who goes on myspace anymore?", right? ))
&&` the question was ｡ ｡ "who`s your best friend?"
i thought for awhile &&` i realized that i don`t have a best friend ｡ ( ・ _ ・)

of course, i have a lot of good friends but i don`t know ｡ ｡
we`re not as close as we use to be i guess ｡
but, it seems like they`ve already found their group of best friends already ｡
like, my best friend from middle school seems to have forgotten me since we go to different schools now &&` we hardly contact each other anymore ｡ ｡
i mean there are times when i talk to them on the phone/computer but it`s not the same anymore｡ half the time we don`t even know what to talk about! ヽ(ﾟﾛﾟ；)
&&` right now in high school i have a handful of wonderful friends but not any that i can openly tell my problems to ｡
usually when i have something that`s bothering me i usually just hide it with a fake smile && act as if i`m living this happy lifestyle because, i hate it when people worry about me ｡
atleast i have a blog now to rant about my problems (( lol｡ like right now! )) so, that i don`t really bottle my emotions inside. (° m ° );
mm;; ｡ ｡but i guess that`s life people change &&` find new friends, right ?
well i`m the type of person who can`t get over a lot of things including change ｡ (( i guess that`s another thing i gotta fix about myself ｡ ))
&&` i`m not saying that the friends that have now are bad or anything ｡
it`s just i feel as if i haven`t really found a best friend yet ｡ （ﾟ∩　ﾟ）

ayeyayay ｡ i should stop now, it`s getting late too｡
&&` i have to study for my history quiz tomarrow !
ahh ｡ gotta love late night studying
again, sorry for this long rant ｡ ｡
i just needed to get it off my chest somehow ｡ （・ ^ ・）''

♡Nacchi｡